Down From the Clouds

Good Evening

While on the plane this morning my mind was abuzz. I wrote down a quick list of 25 things that were on my mind and that I needed to hash out. The urgency was extreme and I felt like ranting about several topics.

Not anymore.

While I do intend to address the list and start blogging about more serious things, I am in no rush. I am not angry, stressed, or worried. I am at peace. Returning home today the grass seemed greener and the sunshine brighter than when I left. I know it's terrible corny, but it was actually true. Home is quite lovely and I enjoy being here.

During the past two weeks I was away. I was in the Andes mountains in a relatively large town helping out at a school and spending time with some people that are extremely dear to me. I was in the clouds, literally, and the scenery was astounding. Erupting volcanoes and massive green mountains are mighty impressive.

While in the mountains I was in extreme conflict. I was having a crisis of faith and trying to figure out why the hell I believe what I believe. Am I complete idiot? My faith was on fire for the first time ever for the past 10 weeks, but then began to die down once again. I needed the coals to be stirred. Thankfully that happened the last Sunday before I left.

I am brushing up on my apologetics* and it is exhausting. My mind needs rest and time to digest. If C.S. Lewis uses one more literary allusion that I do not know, I am going to scream! Haha, it's not really that crucial...

*I did not know what apologetics was until February of this year. I was so afraid of my own faith it is tragic. Now I am diving in and understanding and working things out for myself (with the counsel and input of people I respect).